| Location | Northumberland |
| Age | 30 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 03/10/1963 |
| Date of Death | 11/05/1994 |
| Visitors | 485 since 17/12/2008 |
| Creator |
Alan (baz) was my eldest brother.. when he died, it shocked and changed our lives for ever!! we did not get chance to say good bye... Baz took his own life!! he had so many friends who loved him, and his family adored him.. he loved his mam and dad and was always there for them..... he was a fantastic uncle, and they all miss him too... i will never forget the morning my sister phoned me...... too say HE WAS GONE! that will stay with me for ever.... i wish i could tell you why he did what he did, but i'm unable to!!!!! Baz left behind a 4 week old son!
please all i ask is if there are any people out there feeling down, or have problems... then please please talk to some one...
alan we miss you so much... no matter how many years go by... it will always seem just like yesterday....
i need your advice!
Today i cried, because i needed you, Alan, you were the one who would always help if you could, and give advice, and if you didn't have the anwsers then you were there for the shoulder to cry on.... you were our big brother, and i miss you so much... i so wish you were here, my lads would of thought the world of you... they never got the chance, they were only 3 and 1, when you left us.... now they are 17 and 19... and i know you would be proud! i so miss you.... xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
missing you on your birthday
Alan today mam and dad and myself went to your graveside to send you a silent birthday wish... you would of been 45 today... god it breaks my heart.. i saw the sad look in mam and dads eyes.. I know that you have been watching over them today.. and i know you have paid some visits to them.. your youngest nephew (my son Karl) has also said he has felt you have been around our home too...
I miss you so much, and i know you would of been so proud of my two son's.. you would of been the first one to get in the car with my eldest when he passed his test just two weeks ago and you would of made such a song and dance about me turning 40 on the 11 sep ( the little one growing old you would of said just cos i'm the baby of the family ha ha ) .. God i miss you so much!!!!! Why could you just not of been here and let it all of been a big bad dream!!!! I LOVE YOU BIG BRO! hope you have spent your birthday with Grandma xxxxxxxxxxx
do you know the number
please do you know the number for heaven up above i want to make a call to someone that i love,telephone directories enquiries,oh yes i have tried them all,i even asked the local priest because he talks to god you see i thought he,d have a direct line but he was no help to me,i tried the yellow pages but nothing seem to fit i just want to talk to you for just a little bit, love theresa xxx
miss you xx
oh Alan it might be nearly 15 years since we lost you... but i still miss you so much it hurts .. you were always the one to talk to ..you may not of been able to solve our problems, but you always made us feel better... i just wish now you had come to us.. and let us know what you were feeling.. you will always be a fantastic elder brother to us all... I Love you xxxx
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